On Being a New Mom

This Mom thing is bittersweet...

My old life where I knew who I was and where I belonged is gone. In its place is a new strange thing that is now my life. In the beginning I felt nothing like myself, I really struggled with that. My husband was my saving grace during this time. I was reading all the books and blogs on how to be a good Mommy, do this- don't do that, and I just felt pressure to be the "right kind of mom". I struggled with taking time for myself and had this inner war dialogue over every single decision I made throughout the day. I have always liked to be good at things, and being a new mom was harder than I could've ever imagined. And needless to say, I wasn't "good" at it right off the bat. I was in physical pain and I could not stop crying (hello hormones) but I loved my new baby boy more than anything.